Ilijah is special, it's not Ellijah it's ilijah not only is the name special but he's special. he always
will be he's my number 1 person and I love him he may not even know this but he is still I'm my heart and always
will be
like I told him. He's a beautiful boy he's the boy I sing love songs about, I hate that I can't see him, I hate that he found someone else, I hate that I can't move on. I wonder if he really thinks my hair is mesmerizing, if my face is perfect. Why must I still love him, why can't I just move on
like every other person does. "move on" they say to me I try every single day to forget about him but he's always in my mind
maybe in a few months or years hopefully days. Ideal
woman he says.. how perfect did he think I was I should just give up. I never thought he'd like me
maybe it was my looks. I can't just give up. I love you ilijah. I should be obsessed it's disgusting and pathetic of me.