You find yourself falling in a
forever loop down a
dark, hellish pit, away from the desired state of
happiness. The thought of being awake disgusts you as you'd much rather not even exist or be in an alternate universe away from the hellish state you are currently in. Your
heart gets polluted by darkness and the numbing pain that follows with it. Your soul gets crushed by all the weight of self doubt and hatred. Your goals and dreams end up getting destroyed by the cruel state of
reality as they wash away in your imagination. You feel worthless. You feel like you could die right this second and nothing worthwhile would change. You
see everyone else enjoying life and wonder to yourself how little they know about how truly horrifying the world really is. Your veins are filled with so much self-hatred that you'll gladly harm yourself or even others as a way to cope. You know how much you'd upset your friends and family if you were to take your own life, but you also feel as if it is the only route to
happiness and that they'll understand that later on.
That's what depression feels like. If you're experiencing anything that I mentioned above, talk to someone, anyone.
Don't let the destructive grips of depression hold you back from experiencing the life you want.
