Before I change my mind.
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Please please be on your way quick, I'm struggling ATM. I need...
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Please.
At 1 I'm going back inside.
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Fuck I hope you're on your way I can't stay outside much longer I'm going to be sick.
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Do you really?
Well, I guess I got my answer... Actions speak louder than words.
Thanks for showing me how much of a fool I am once again... I can't believe how stupid I am to fall for it again.
This fucking hurts so bad, you could've just told me the truth, I'm a big girl I can take it. But no, you had to make me so ecstatic, so excited and happy, and then rip it away and tear my heart out of my chest all over again. What the hell did I do to make you hate me so much that you keep hurting me? Don't worry message received, I'll leave you the fuck alone, you don't have to worry about me bothering you anymore
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Please please be on your way quick, I'm struggling ATM. I need...
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Please.
At 1 I'm going back inside.
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Fuck I hope you're on your way I can't stay outside much longer I'm going to be sick.
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Do you really?
Well, I guess I got my answer... Actions speak louder than words.
Thanks for showing me how much of a fool I am once again... I can't believe how stupid I am to fall for it again.
This fucking hurts so bad, you could've just told me the truth, I'm a big girl I can take it. But no, you had to make me so ecstatic, so excited and happy, and then rip it away and tear my heart out of my chest all over again. What the hell did I do to make you hate me so much that you keep hurting me? Don't worry message received, I'll leave you the fuck alone, you don't have to worry about me bothering you anymore
I love you. I love you too. Do you really or do I just fill a hole in your heart an empty space in your house? /Sobs/
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 13, 2023
I should be using this time to unpack my things. The thing about a speedy removal is that nothing is organised or correctly boxes up, it's just thrown in everywhere that had space. Instead I'm writing, I'd rather clear my head than my space. You know I'm going to be fine. I'll work through, I'll grow some more. It just hurts right now. It's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, be away from you, move out. I can't even really talk about it, not that anyone could understand even if I did. So don't worry, I'm not looking for someone to save me, I'm not looking for someone to replace you, actually, I'm not looking for anyone, I don't even want to be around the people I have to. I don't know what I'm going to do yet but you can bet your sweet sexy ass I'm going to do it with my head held high. I'm no longer in the business of pleasing others, proving points, or seeking revenge. I'm only going to do me, for me, to be proud of me. I know so long as I do that you will be too. I'm going to succeed and I'm going to do it my way. Other than that, the only thing o need in life is for you to be happy and proud of yourself. I'd say call me if you need any help but my phone is destroyed, and you don't need me anyway, you never did. I can see your success, your happiness. I'll leave you alone, watch from afar. Just know I'm so proud of you, and you should be too.
I love you xoxo
I love you xoxo
I shattered the glass slipper, and then used the sharp edges as weapons to slay the dragon myself. Turns out the dragon is a sweet soul, misunderstood by many, and struggling to express emotions.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 04, 2023
Mad beyond belief
Disappointed more than ever
Pain that forced a body numb
This is a code Orange. I will not tolerate this non-sense any longer. I do have self respect and so you will have to put in some major work if you want to repair the damage and be in my life. Either grow up and act like a husband, or grow a pair and tell me to move on. But I refuse to lety guard down for someone that will cross that line. I have not done a thing to deserve this.
Disappointed more than ever
Pain that forced a body numb
This is a code Orange. I will not tolerate this non-sense any longer. I do have self respect and so you will have to put in some major work if you want to repair the damage and be in my life. Either grow up and act like a husband, or grow a pair and tell me to move on. But I refuse to lety guard down for someone that will cross that line. I have not done a thing to deserve this.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 04, 2023
The one-day's, the maybe's, the I-hope's, the imaginary-future-game's, the can't-wait's, and the we-should's.
The Ghost of life itself wondering up and down your hallway humming a sweet sad song, reminding you of the opaque alternative you refused to nurture and cherish.
It's the words of comfort from others that unknowingly stab at your sense of solitude. It's the progression of comfort you provide yourself to reject pity. It's convincing yourself you're better off to avoid the pain of accepting your misdemeanors.
P1: there's plenty of fish in the sea, you've just gotta get back out there
P2: I'm better off alone, I have freedom, I can do whatever I want, and I have so much more time and money now.
P1: you'll change your mind, someone else will come when you least expect it and sweep you off your feet.
The Ghost of life itself wondering up and down your hallway humming a sweet sad song, reminding you of the opaque alternative you refused to nurture and cherish.
It's the words of comfort from others that unknowingly stab at your sense of solitude. It's the progression of comfort you provide yourself to reject pity. It's convincing yourself you're better off to avoid the pain of accepting your misdemeanors.
P1: there's plenty of fish in the sea, you've just gotta get back out there
P2: I'm better off alone, I have freedom, I can do whatever I want, and I have so much more time and money now.
P1: you'll change your mind, someone else will come when you least expect it and sweep you off your feet.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 04, 2023