The one I still love even after all has been lost
I should have written this when you still loved me; now it is only I who love
You are so strong; so many obstacles that you have overcome
The only woman I have ever loved who loved me back… and such love
My soul mate; my one chance at happiness
From the first moment I saw you on Easter Monday in that parking lot my breath was taken away; I can still see it and it’s nearly been a year.
We drank coffee, we walked and we shopped; it was like nothing I had ever imagined, so natural, so right. Such a beautiful first date
Your inner beauty as well as your appearance; your
intelligence, your humour,
everything truly
indescribableI didn’t write this when we were together because no words can describe my feelings for you; I am still struggling now. You are amazing.
You deserve the sweetest poetry,
the most beautiful song. Every flower, every song bird in the world pales even next to your reflection.
How can I describe you or my
feelings about you; I have tried and all I have done is pushed you away. I have made so many mistakes; I have run out of chances but the loss… the loss is eternal.
I failed to be truly honest with you; I should have told you how much I was still in love with you when I had the chance. The risk of losing you from my life altogether, of losing you as my friend held me back. It was the wrong choice as I have lost you now. I have lost me.
We should have done so much more, made so many more memories. We both should have tried so much harder.
We should have met in the spring, so many things I wanted to share with you in the summer; but the summer is not ours
This is not what I wanted to write; it was never going to be enough anyway; you are beyond words.
Every part of me, the very fibre of my soul aches for you now.
If I only had one wish; it would always be you
I love you Kelly
I will always miss you
Sunday 10/01/2010
