BigBenjamin, or LittleBenjamin as he was known to his
ex-boyfriend is a devoted player on
Runescape. Beyond his love for the game, he has many struggles, one of which is his weight that can be
seen in his
Discord picture. In the past, he had a boyfriend who left him because of his impenitence and skinny arms. This event left him feeling alone and desperate for validation.
BigBenjamin is a regular donor and subscriber to a
popular streamer who only pays attention to him when he gives him
money. This makes him feel important and valued, but it is a false sense of validation that only feeds into his dependency on others' recognition. He has no friends in
person, so his online community is where he goes to seek companionship. However, the attention he gets from people online is not enough to fill the void in his life. It only exacerbates his mental health issues, leading him to see a psychiatrist to help him address his depression.
The root of his depression stems from his experiences of bullying in school. This trauma has had a lasting impact on his life, and he has struggled to overcome the emotional scars associated with it. Despite his struggles, BigBenjamin remains a dedicated player on Runescape. Through the game, he has found a community of
people who accept him for who he is, and this gives him a sense of belonging. However, he needs to address his mental health issues and work towards building meaningful relationships in real life to find true
happiness and fulfilment.
