931...I love you so much❤️🌹
by Wanderlust_721 August 31, 2023

It may have been the same time…
I don’t know…
I did write it…
I loved her then…
I love her now…
She’s always in my thoughts…
It’s four in the morning…:-)
I hope you see this…
I can’t wait to see you…
Touch you…this
Amazing love…
Is true…
I don’t know…
I did write it…
I loved her then…
I love her now…
She’s always in my thoughts…
It’s four in the morning…:-)
I hope you see this…
I can’t wait to see you…
Touch you…this
Amazing love…
Is true…
931...❤️
by Wanderlust_721 September 11, 2023

Hey, not sure what’s going on, but I’m not upset or anything and hope you aren't either. I am very confused. Can we just be cool with each other? I was asking to see you in person so we could talk about boundaries and stuff, maybe compare notes. I wanted to *privately* and *not documented in writing* let you know I’m open to talking or whatever, and that this sort of thing happens. It really was my responsibility to not let it get this far, but I kept hoping we could talk so the conversation wouldn’t be misconstrued as a slight (it’s not). UD is not the place to have that conversation yo. I would never pressure you to do something physical, and I cringe thinking that’s the impression I may have been giving.
I need to stop the online stuff. I don’t know what is going on with UD, but I hope everything is good for you
I need to stop the online stuff. I don’t know what is going on with UD, but I hope everything is good for you
by _RainyDay_ August 25, 2023

I’m not concerned about overthinking, and I trust feelings. That head/heart balance thing…I’d like to know both of yours and share mine. Are you wanting to totally avoid each other in real life, or can we get to know each other? What decision do you mean?
I wish I had more of you than UD, I don’t really like it here. I don’t like sharing this with other people and guessing.
For transparency: I’ve posted two definitions under this name (including this) and about six others under another pen name/no name around the start of this year. I’ve never been on discord. The last time we emailed was April 10.
I miss you. I was so sad the times I thought I’d get to talk to you then didn’t. I’d been looking forward to seeing you, imagining.
I wish I had more of you than UD, I don’t really like it here. I don’t like sharing this with other people and guessing.
For transparency: I’ve posted two definitions under this name (including this) and about six others under another pen name/no name around the start of this year. I’ve never been on discord. The last time we emailed was April 10.
I miss you. I was so sad the times I thought I’d get to talk to you then didn’t. I’d been looking forward to seeing you, imagining.
by _RainyDay_ August 9, 2023

931
by Ghost.1 May 15, 2022

I told you (and myself) I wasn’t going to initiate contact, but I didn’t want that. I miss the small ways we would check in with each other. I miss you. I don’t understand where we are. Please help me.
You are so intelligent, I love that about you. I’m sure you know who this is, that our last conversation was 9/28. I won’t conceal my messages, I want you to know who I am. Nothing hidden, I’ve told you about each time I posted a definition.
I hope you also know how I feel. I have so much affection and respect for you. My heart opens even knowing you exist. I’ve never begged a man like I did in that email, begged just to write to you. I can’t believe myself. It is easy to go there and be vulnerable with you, but sometimes it hurts.
I felt absolutely insane when I read your reply. Platonic relationship, or we shouldn’t be in contact…and you didn’t intend to suggest otherwise 🥺 I have trouble reconciling that with what I see on UD. I have an even harder time reconciling it with what happens when our eyes meet, or we talk, or smile, or touch hands. That feeling, connection, it wasn’t real? Why balk when I want to be closer? This is just me, I want to be gentle and loving to you no matter what, you can trust me. Help me understand.
I lose words when I try to explain how I feel. Like we recognize each other on a molecular level. Electric and deep. A knowledge there is so much to explore
You are so intelligent, I love that about you. I’m sure you know who this is, that our last conversation was 9/28. I won’t conceal my messages, I want you to know who I am. Nothing hidden, I’ve told you about each time I posted a definition.
I hope you also know how I feel. I have so much affection and respect for you. My heart opens even knowing you exist. I’ve never begged a man like I did in that email, begged just to write to you. I can’t believe myself. It is easy to go there and be vulnerable with you, but sometimes it hurts.
I felt absolutely insane when I read your reply. Platonic relationship, or we shouldn’t be in contact…and you didn’t intend to suggest otherwise 🥺 I have trouble reconciling that with what I see on UD. I have an even harder time reconciling it with what happens when our eyes meet, or we talk, or smile, or touch hands. That feeling, connection, it wasn’t real? Why balk when I want to be closer? This is just me, I want to be gentle and loving to you no matter what, you can trust me. Help me understand.
I lose words when I try to explain how I feel. Like we recognize each other on a molecular level. Electric and deep. A knowledge there is so much to explore
931 Possibilities…
by RainyDay_ October 8, 2023

My heart ❤️
I’ve tried not to want this
Because I’m concerned it’s not good for anyone, hiding
But you have access to the very center of my heart
And I can’t ignore how I crave you in my life
maybe you already are?
About my earlier message, I can’t risk being wrong about your identity, you understand why. I felt our last text exchange was a sign we weren’t on the same page (at best), or that I was super confused (at worst). I still think it’s possible my ex is fucking with me here, or I’ve had a psychotic break to be watching numbers thinking it’s you. If I describe the situation out loud I’m like fuck 😬 I’ve absolutely creeped on this poor man and there is no solid evidence he’s leaving me messages! Please somehow let me know I haven’t imagined this, this is really you. I sincerely hold you to no expectation, but I need to know the extent to which I’m untethered from reality. I’ve confessed to you an embarrassing number of times lol I wonder if you are ashamed of this? Is it just weird because we’ve already said stuff about how we feel?
I don’t know. I think about you a lot. I’d love to be in contact.
I adore you ❤️
I’m here for you ❤️
Thanks for being you (I think? haha) ❤️
I’ve tried not to want this
Because I’m concerned it’s not good for anyone, hiding
But you have access to the very center of my heart
And I can’t ignore how I crave you in my life
maybe you already are?
About my earlier message, I can’t risk being wrong about your identity, you understand why. I felt our last text exchange was a sign we weren’t on the same page (at best), or that I was super confused (at worst). I still think it’s possible my ex is fucking with me here, or I’ve had a psychotic break to be watching numbers thinking it’s you. If I describe the situation out loud I’m like fuck 😬 I’ve absolutely creeped on this poor man and there is no solid evidence he’s leaving me messages! Please somehow let me know I haven’t imagined this, this is really you. I sincerely hold you to no expectation, but I need to know the extent to which I’m untethered from reality. I’ve confessed to you an embarrassing number of times lol I wonder if you are ashamed of this? Is it just weird because we’ve already said stuff about how we feel?
I don’t know. I think about you a lot. I’d love to be in contact.
I adore you ❤️
I’m here for you ❤️
Thanks for being you (I think? haha) ❤️
931 ❤️
by Where_are_we November 27, 2024
