She denies having any darker, negative feelings because with her surface
wholesome image, she wants the world to think she is
lighting up the world around her, even if everyone continues to turn on each other, and things continue to get worse every time they change, even if all her friends and family and everyone around her but her is dysfunctional and fucked up. The results of her behavior are all negative, but everyone is expected/forced to call it
something positive like hope for her. There are some of us that just want to openly darken the world around us a little more without the pretense of doing anything good for anybody else, or helping/saving anybody else.