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You realize if I knew unequivocally that this was you, I would have jumped over the seat.

I don’t know if me not knowing for sure is a good thing or not. It drives me crazy not knowing 100%, (I would definitely be more confident if someone didn’t find the need to mess with). I always have to think what if it isn’t you and how would this come across... as you can tell sometimes I don’t listen to my head... there isn’t a restraining order yet at least.

And you want to know what else is frustrating... I can’t get you to bite on anything that would clear up any of my doubts... And then when I don’t think and am impulsive, you are completely calm and give me NOTHING. You won’t look me in the eyes, but if you did, I probably would cry and jump into your arms.

If I could just get you to look me in the eyes for more than a second when alone... but then I need to not cry ... this crying thing wouldn’t even be an issue, but now it is an issue... I can cry because I love you so much... I can cry because I miss you... I can cry because I think about being in your arms...

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1010; I need to get creative... last time I thought I was creative still hasn’t worked out for me yet🤔. Love you and I will get in your arms!!

by If only 1 day he would see October 26, 2022

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Our paths no longer cross…
What is harder?
Never seeing him…
Or seeing him knowing his love is not yours to have….

I love seeing him…
How he makes my heart run…
Anything I would do

To see him for a minute or two.

My head may say “no”
While my heart has already made my body go…

I love YOU!!!!
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by If only 1 day he would see September 11, 2025