To sexually please one's self while hating the object of pleasure. The inevitable result of Heidi Pratt's appearance in Playboy.
by jagnutz August 9, 2009
the act of masturbating while crying because of depression, anger or frustration. Typically performed facing a corner of a room, as in a style of self-punishment. Can be done sitting, standing or kneeling, and is often a bit violent.
by Melrose927 April 5, 2010
When you hate yourself but don't want to do anything to change so you masterbate to make the pain go away but hate yourself more after.
by Dumpster fire 72 January 3, 2017