5 definitions by moon&night
loneliness comes from realization of all of that
feeling like seeing everything from the outside
a different kind of loneliness, its bitter sweet
its good because you see so much more that other people
and feel things very differently, naturally
I guess other people call that "crazy"
because it is not logically explainable
there is beauty in that gift
but the exchange of a that gift is loneliness
and curse is darkness of devil
yang accompanies yin
maybe that's why art and music becomes our companion
a friend we can share ourselves with
because the truth is we also need a friend
a friend that can understand the weird/crazy way we are built
and help us share what we see and feel
~ end of the letter~
feeling like seeing everything from the outside
a different kind of loneliness, its bitter sweet
its good because you see so much more that other people
and feel things very differently, naturally
I guess other people call that "crazy"
because it is not logically explainable
there is beauty in that gift
but the exchange of a that gift is loneliness
and curse is darkness of devil
yang accompanies yin
maybe that's why art and music becomes our companion
a friend we can share ourselves with
because the truth is we also need a friend
a friend that can understand the weird/crazy way we are built
and help us share what we see and feel
~ end of the letter~
continued...I think I knew it all long but the young me just could not come into terms with the difference and the reality because I was a hopeless optimist
by moon&night January 1, 2022
maybe that's why I was taken down south
where the dragons played together
I didn't realize it allllll along
my own identity was starting me into my face lol
and I was clueless like an idiot
or maybe it was denial all long
sometimes I want to slap myself and say to myself (I do)
"you fucking idiot, it took you full four years and the answer was in front of you all along!!!"
we would scream the chant into the air before we played
and weirdly it uplifted me
we had to change the name sadly and I was sad for some reason
I couldn't figure it out then
but dragons are smart, they kept the name
its dragons ... something
you probably know
maybe that's why I was so attracted to her
she was like me, I just felt it
even though I couldn't pin point at the time
but now I finally know
I don't want to live in denial anymore
Denial was worse than accepting the reality
where the dragons played together
I didn't realize it allllll along
my own identity was starting me into my face lol
and I was clueless like an idiot
or maybe it was denial all long
sometimes I want to slap myself and say to myself (I do)
"you fucking idiot, it took you full four years and the answer was in front of you all along!!!"
we would scream the chant into the air before we played
and weirdly it uplifted me
we had to change the name sadly and I was sad for some reason
I couldn't figure it out then
but dragons are smart, they kept the name
its dragons ... something
you probably know
maybe that's why I was so attracted to her
she was like me, I just felt it
even though I couldn't pin point at the time
but now I finally know
I don't want to live in denial anymore
Denial was worse than accepting the reality
by moon&night January 1, 2022
it so hard to listen or read or do anything
because you take that
and fit it into an image you have created of me in you mind
it annoying
and show to me confidently, saying
"this is who you are, right?"
annoying
just so you know
most of the time, you have missed the point
and I played along
because playing the role of fool sometimes comes in handy
but seriously stop
because you take that
and fit it into an image you have created of me in you mind
it annoying
and show to me confidently, saying
"this is who you are, right?"
annoying
just so you know
most of the time, you have missed the point
and I played along
because playing the role of fool sometimes comes in handy
but seriously stop
tired of trying to prove myself, so imma do what I feel like and go ahead and assume as much as you want
by moon&night January 1, 2022
also stop acting like you know it all
or at least what's going through my head?
I know you don't like this word but,
"its annoying :)"
I can see through your ways lol
very deceiving but not hard to figure out
really, ego is an annoying thing
learned it from you
thanks
or at least what's going through my head?
I know you don't like this word but,
"its annoying :)"
I can see through your ways lol
very deceiving but not hard to figure out
really, ego is an annoying thing
learned it from you
thanks
000...lol
by moon&night January 1, 2022
should I call it ignorance or misunderstanding or the unknown the world does not know yet
loneliness that is born on the day we realize
because we see the difference, since the beginning
between us and other people
we are just born this way
we realize as we grow up
and to accept that reality is not easy
because you realize you are an outlier
really out there
and no matter how hard you try you cannot be among the majority
jealousy maybe, of how other people can live life with warmth of sunshine
denial, that this reality cannot be true
how could you be such an outlier
you want to be among other people
you admire what they can do, how they can connect
hatred perhaps too, to the fate that you were born into
fate that you cannot change
because you cannot change how nature has created you
that's the limit
~ a letter to myself pt.1~
loneliness that is born on the day we realize
because we see the difference, since the beginning
between us and other people
we are just born this way
we realize as we grow up
and to accept that reality is not easy
because you realize you are an outlier
really out there
and no matter how hard you try you cannot be among the majority
jealousy maybe, of how other people can live life with warmth of sunshine
denial, that this reality cannot be true
how could you be such an outlier
you want to be among other people
you admire what they can do, how they can connect
hatred perhaps too, to the fate that you were born into
fate that you cannot change
because you cannot change how nature has created you
that's the limit
~ a letter to myself pt.1~
it's time to wake up, alien
the last alarm if going off
*also this is level of skill I have for writing right now, so don't judge
the last alarm if going off
*also this is level of skill I have for writing right now, so don't judge
by moon&night January 1, 2022