1 definition by Gabriel.

Social Anxiety

Afraid of people, beeing verry self-consciousness always feeling there's something wrong with you and that you're are watched by somebody all the time and you always fear that your peers will judge your actions. Living with social anxiety disorder sucks terribly!!! You want to do something but you can't.. you know that your fear is irational but you can't do nothing about it, something like a mental cage. SOCIAL ANXIETY SUCKS AND I HAVE THE WORST TYPE OF SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER! The one were you're afraid to go outside, talk to friends, strangers, talking on the phone and even chating with people online! How fucked up is that!?!?! ;( . And were not some crazy psychos! We're just normal people that want to do what normal people do, but we have a stupid mental disorder that makes us feel a completly irational fear that won't go away!.Most of the time we only remember the negative remarks that people said about us and usualy those toughts remain in our minds for weeks. We're not emos or goths!!! they don't have damn clue how it is to live with this shit. Social anxiety is like a fear and pain that won't go away!!NEVER!! And most people don't understand us! If you're a person that doesn't have Social Anxiety disorder, you're probably saying somethin like: ahahahaha what a sad fuck!! It's not like that!! We never wanted to have this stupid disorder. We feel lonely, isolated and barren inside :(

Gabriel only wanted to be like everyone else:
-to play sports such as football/basketball or any sport with a bunch of kids his age;
-to be just like everyone else and don't stand out in a crowd;
-to go to parties and have a good time with friends and meet new people;
-to graduate highschool;
Alas, he will never achive this things since he suffers from Social Anxiety Disorder and has isolated himself from his friends and the world for years ;(

by Gabriel. May 10, 2006