When you look in the mirror and no longer recognize yourself, you feel a black emptiness inside and have lost all interest in life. You feel a mind numbing pain that you've given up on treating and you make it through the day because its all you know how to do, antidepressants never worked, therapy was a joke and as you sit there in your run down apartment in the ghetto you think about all your failures that have steered you to this moment and you feel that black tar or depression suffocating you. You have stopped brushing your teeth and washing your hair, you eat just enough to survive, you're too afraid of death to kill yourself. You're empty. You know there is no one to blame but yourself, you know that if you really tried, maybe, just maybe you could fix things, just a bit, but you never will.
by Giskard Reventlov March 26, 2018
To be a husk. To live each and every day and not a thought pass by worth remembering. You blink, breathe, exist but none it it feels real. You look down at your hands, you see skin and you know underneath is flesh. But what's below? The soul you were promised by birth, or whatever life left you with after tearing you apart. And then the next time you look in the mirror, and you see eyes and skin and hair but you know that none of it is real. Because your not human, just living in the shell of one.
by goshstopoverthinking November 7, 2023