The fear that the role you once occupied in someone’s life, could be refilled without a second thought; questioning if there is someone who can better support them, bring them joy, or show them the love that you’re unable to
It's what you use instead of saying your friend's real name when you call them.
Instead of saying "what's up your friend's name, you'll say "what's up Ochie?
You can also add a couple of letter E's to express your emotion even more extremely.