Second-handed suicide is where someone wants to die, but doesn't commit suicide. They don't like life, but they are too scared to actually commit.
Me: I don't like life, everything bad happens to me. I just want it to be done.

Also me: sometimes it's good, I do have friends, I don't want them to be hurt bc of me.

Second-handed suicide. (this took me so long bc it wouldn't let me submit it)
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