to want to want something; to wish to have the desire for
A: I need to get in shape.
B: You should train for the marathon with me.
A: Maybe, but I'm so unmotivated. At this point, I just meta-want to run a marathon, so I doubt I'll actually do it.
"I meta-want to be a better boyfriend because I know I upset her; unfortunately I really enjoy sleeping with a variety of women."