when IT is GOTTEN
when there no longer is an 'other'
the transition of localized consciousness back into the natural state of the ETERNAL (THAT undescribable, ALL in ONE, ONE in ALL)
Revel in the LOVE within that is everywhere to be found when the angle of localized consciousness is subtly adjusted!
What a miracle it is to exist without knowing how!!
There is no way to know what is ultimately best; best not to worry about it:)