188 definitions by 4_u
Odd thought.. I hadn't mentioned the picture of her before
I looked at it all the time.. such an angel
Now I have a new one.. and fuck me I'm absolutely obsessed
I looked at it all the time.. such an angel
Now I have a new one.. and fuck me I'm absolutely obsessed
by 4_u September 21, 2023
I'm not sure if that is a suprise or not. All my ability to read people or trust anything seems to be failing me.
The flight is a very unique an slightly odd way to reference things! Certainly new to me
That's not messed up at all.. I feel an ease just being close to her.. I don't even need to look to tell she's moved next to me or closer.. I loved when she did that..
Every so often.. usually when I was being sour faced 😞 she'd all of a sudden be right next to me.. I could feel her warmth just like she wanted me in her presence.. I don't know if she ever knew how much I loved those moments
When I could tell.. it was just for me.. damn that makes me feel a pang of.. hope maybe, that I've not felt in a good week or so..
Weirdly even the few times we got in each others way.. we never collided. We sorta danced around each other like we preemptively read each others movements.. that kinda chemistry.. thats rare.. makes any physical interaction, even the most minor feel like theres a deep connection, I loved it
Thought you'd like the joincidence :) and I'm not smiling much.. but I'm trying!
Olive juice? What do you mean? I know it's not in the Popeye context!
And what's 26 in reference to? If you don't mind me asking :)
The flight is a very unique an slightly odd way to reference things! Certainly new to me
That's not messed up at all.. I feel an ease just being close to her.. I don't even need to look to tell she's moved next to me or closer.. I loved when she did that..
Every so often.. usually when I was being sour faced 😞 she'd all of a sudden be right next to me.. I could feel her warmth just like she wanted me in her presence.. I don't know if she ever knew how much I loved those moments
When I could tell.. it was just for me.. damn that makes me feel a pang of.. hope maybe, that I've not felt in a good week or so..
Weirdly even the few times we got in each others way.. we never collided. We sorta danced around each other like we preemptively read each others movements.. that kinda chemistry.. thats rare.. makes any physical interaction, even the most minor feel like theres a deep connection, I loved it
Thought you'd like the joincidence :) and I'm not smiling much.. but I'm trying!
Olive juice? What do you mean? I know it's not in the Popeye context!
And what's 26 in reference to? If you don't mind me asking :)
I don't know. I was in overdrive for a while because I thought I'd figured something out.. things here.. that random conversation I've been having.. something still felt off..
But I honestly don't understand it, the things I was leaning on aren't there anymore an I just don't know what to do think or do. I don't mind waiting, when I have something to look forward to. Seeing her used to be that.. even in no romantic way just being able to hear her talk.. little things she did while working.. gave me an odd comfort that I've almost forgotten the feel of 😔
I think I've just been wrong about everything. Talking to myself maybe the entire time, or just being made a joke out of. I don't believe she would do that, but whose to say she hasn't told a friend about me an they're doing it for entertainment? I can't ask, prove or do anything
Sorry I don't mean to be cryptic, but you can surely see, I don't feel like I have any control over my life. My head is SCREAMING at me to stop. My heart just won't. I don't know how to cope with both of those things escalating
Don't worry your title of top smartarse (it is arse by the way, not ass) is still solidly intact :)
But I honestly don't understand it, the things I was leaning on aren't there anymore an I just don't know what to do think or do. I don't mind waiting, when I have something to look forward to. Seeing her used to be that.. even in no romantic way just being able to hear her talk.. little things she did while working.. gave me an odd comfort that I've almost forgotten the feel of 😔
I think I've just been wrong about everything. Talking to myself maybe the entire time, or just being made a joke out of. I don't believe she would do that, but whose to say she hasn't told a friend about me an they're doing it for entertainment? I can't ask, prove or do anything
Sorry I don't mean to be cryptic, but you can surely see, I don't feel like I have any control over my life. My head is SCREAMING at me to stop. My heart just won't. I don't know how to cope with both of those things escalating
Don't worry your title of top smartarse (it is arse by the way, not ass) is still solidly intact :)
by 4_u September 20, 2023
The best times I had.. were singing my heart out with you.
I will never.. ever.. forget.
The smile.. that lit my soul on fire.
I have never, in my entire life wandering this earth.. been as happy as I have been in your presence.
I care about nothing else.
Il love you in this life.. and every one that follows.
Always.
Don't forget, keep it safe for me.
I will never.. ever.. forget.
The smile.. that lit my soul on fire.
I have never, in my entire life wandering this earth.. been as happy as I have been in your presence.
I care about nothing else.
Il love you in this life.. and every one that follows.
Always.
Don't forget, keep it safe for me.
She's.. the best
by 4_u August 22, 2023
This has to be my head tonight 😒 my usual compass is completely off
Too many questions lol what have you been leaving around? I never got your thing about 'the mail' you've mentioned a couple times either..
Crackers.. I'm totally lost.. same with leaving things at the door 🧐
You have mentioned your box before though.. that sounds like something real.. not metaphorical.. some form of keepsake reminding you of him?
Tears.. I can identify with today.. well.. just one, when I started trying to write tonight..
I hope they were happy tears.. if I'm right.. it's so nice that you've kept something like that. Trust me, you don't know how important things like that are to a guy who really feels for you.. that would really make me happy
I hope you do get your suprise.. your one day..
You've said it many times before too.. what's your favourite 3 about?
I can't even begin to see what the guess would be about
Too many questions lol what have you been leaving around? I never got your thing about 'the mail' you've mentioned a couple times either..
Crackers.. I'm totally lost.. same with leaving things at the door 🧐
You have mentioned your box before though.. that sounds like something real.. not metaphorical.. some form of keepsake reminding you of him?
Tears.. I can identify with today.. well.. just one, when I started trying to write tonight..
I hope they were happy tears.. if I'm right.. it's so nice that you've kept something like that. Trust me, you don't know how important things like that are to a guy who really feels for you.. that would really make me happy
I hope you do get your suprise.. your one day..
You've said it many times before too.. what's your favourite 3 about?
I can't even begin to see what the guess would be about
I hope things make more sense tomorrow..
Though it seems any assurance I have is always short lived..
3 seems hold some significance to you.. numbers seem to have woken up for me a little the last few days.. but given the endless list of joincidences already.. they don't seem to add much weight anymore
I hope, more than anything that you're ok
Gotta try switch off now.. some nights when she's been endlessly on my mind.. I've stood outside.. in the silence watchin the sunrise..
But I need this to end for the night.. I'm.. exhausted
Il wait till im in the right place to actually smile as I feel the warmth on my face..
I've gazed at the moon non stop tonight though..
Though it seems any assurance I have is always short lived..
3 seems hold some significance to you.. numbers seem to have woken up for me a little the last few days.. but given the endless list of joincidences already.. they don't seem to add much weight anymore
I hope, more than anything that you're ok
Gotta try switch off now.. some nights when she's been endlessly on my mind.. I've stood outside.. in the silence watchin the sunrise..
But I need this to end for the night.. I'm.. exhausted
Il wait till im in the right place to actually smile as I feel the warmth on my face..
I've gazed at the moon non stop tonight though..
by 4_u September 30, 2023
I'm so sorry for my words today
I genuinely.. thought feeling like this was over. Stupid I know
It's scaring me how real it feels this time.. lookin at her picture.. is hurting unbelievably
I'm dreading when I put my head down tonight
I genuinely.. thought feeling like this was over. Stupid I know
It's scaring me how real it feels this time.. lookin at her picture.. is hurting unbelievably
I'm dreading when I put my head down tonight
by 4_u October 4, 2023
Sorry.. bombarding you again!
Think I've asked a few things that I cant recall you answering.. an I have more if you don't mind!
Do you have any songs that make you think of him? Or any you've shared that have a different meaning or feel for you now? We already share the moon.. stars and sun connection
You've said a lot about his character.. sounds like he's a man of morals.. I like that you value that in him.. again, that's rare now. I can guess.. his eyes.. and arms are you favourites physically, what about mentality? Sense of humour, intellect?
I have a feeling you challenge each other a lot.. and not argue but, bring out a heated passion when you disagree?
Imagine you are both grown enough to resolve anything though. I saw a really nice post on insta earlier about being able talk through problems with someone.. not about being right or wrong.. jus understanding someone else's perspective.. so nice to know other people still value the feelings of others. 99% of people do not give a fuck
Think I've asked a few things that I cant recall you answering.. an I have more if you don't mind!
Do you have any songs that make you think of him? Or any you've shared that have a different meaning or feel for you now? We already share the moon.. stars and sun connection
You've said a lot about his character.. sounds like he's a man of morals.. I like that you value that in him.. again, that's rare now. I can guess.. his eyes.. and arms are you favourites physically, what about mentality? Sense of humour, intellect?
I have a feeling you challenge each other a lot.. and not argue but, bring out a heated passion when you disagree?
Imagine you are both grown enough to resolve anything though. I saw a really nice post on insta earlier about being able talk through problems with someone.. not about being right or wrong.. jus understanding someone else's perspective.. so nice to know other people still value the feelings of others. 99% of people do not give a fuck
by 4_u September 23, 2023