i really want this separation to be over already. i miss checking up on you 24/7, i miss the way i would spam you with so many videos until i would basically fall asleep :( i miss waking up to your messages, and i know you miss waking up to my messages too <3. i miss playing roblox with you, i miss when we would randomly wait for eachother in tower of hell, i miss how we act around eachother. i miss the way we would hug. i miss your hugs so much :( i miss the way i would write you continuous paragraphs and essays while you would be asleep :( <3 but now that we're forced to stay separated for 4 months. 4. damn. months. i'm not able to send you anything, not even a little " hey baby, im just checking up on you since im very worried about you :( " i really hope that this torture will be over :(. anyway, im overthinking quite a lot but i trust you a lot, so i know you won't catch feelings for another girl, nor lose feelings for me :D i know how happy and loved i make you feel, you will never be able to forget me nor my vibe ;) you make me feel so damn special and so safe, so happy, so loved, i feel like a priority C: the way you're so perfect lights up my whole mood. your smile is so beautiful, your voice is so lovely, your hugs are so warm, your personality is so perfect, your looks are so pretty. you're my pretty boy, forever :D i love you so much, and if you're reading this, elijah, you mean everything to me, and i never want to lose you, mwah !! x)

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