I led a normal life until age 36 no childhood problems, no divorced parents, no health problems. I breezed through high school and college. I had a dream job. Then my life collapsed. Suddenly I had horrendous back problems. Later my daily life was dominated by phobias. I feared utility companies. Next I developed a fear of the state of Wisconsin and almost the entire Midwest.

1. noun. It is the sudden feeling of an inexplicable joy one gets when something romantic or idealistic occurs.

When kilig, one may experience the following:

*butterflies in one's stomach
*heart melting
*shivers down one's spine
*irrepressible noises from one's mouth
*uncontrollable smiling
*an inner conflict between hope of something wished for and reality

Kilig may also be defined as that mountain top, floating, on cloud nine, invincible, i-could-keep-smiling, heart aching goodness and feeling which overpowers the mind's ability to think straight, act straight, breathe properly and articulate thoughts into a single comprehensible sentence.