Another Follower

It was yesterday when I was so worried if you did something "stupid" to yourself. It was yesterday when I cried my heart out and wanted to check on you. It was yesterday when I visited the garden for the first time.. just by myself.

There is a shell of a snail that I have had for years, and I always carry it with me. I like the metaphors of "snail" - slow and steady, small and strong, resilient. I used to patiently watch them slowly moved across the backyard after a rainny night. I enjoyed it again and did not think it was a waste of time. I observed and enjoyed thinking when looking at another life - from a human life to nature (I do believe that even trees and rocks have souls - not in a sense of souls like we have)

At the area behind that wooden house, where I put the shell of the snail down and took a picture, there was a guy (a European guy) walking toward my direction as I was trying to take a picture of the shell. He walked pass me to the right and then he stopped.. just lingered around. I wondered: "Why do you keep lingering? Please keep walking. I feel uncomfortable." I finally got up and walked away. He saw me and smiled at me.

I think I was rude by not smiling back. I kept looking at my messages to you. He followed..

I thought: "You had all the time to walk that way when I was taking pictures.. why do you just suddenly walk this way as I walk this way too? Don't tell me this is another situation of asking for phone numbers. Sorry, no phone numbers to strangers." I must know someone really well before I give out my phone numbers unless it's someone important, work-related .. *you* were the only exception.. You will forever be my only exception (I will write about the only exception later).

I tried to walk a different path.. He knew that it would be very obvious if he walked down that path with me. He looked at me from afar as I touched the trees, rocks that you might touch one day.

He waited for me to come up. I waited for him to leave. I think he really wanted to say "hi" and start a conversation. I really wish you were there laughing with me.. like a friend (I dont have any preference because I really know you have complications in life).
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by The Gardener in Fairy Tales January 11, 2022

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maybe another time?

if they went to the point where they said this that must've meant you've been begging. they probably said no the first time so just stfu and stop trying!they are not playing "hard to get" they just want you to fuck off. is no so hard for you to understand?

d-head:hey,wanna have a drink?

random:no, thank you!

d-head:why not?

random:i dont want to.

d-head:why?

random:maybe another time?

random:*runs away*

by darlling<3 April 5, 2022

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