The state that Nu-Metal bands pretend to be in
"dude, i'm so depressed - let's get our producer to write a song about it and we can sing it on MTV and stupid loser kids who also pretend to be rebel outcast depressives can sing along and buy hoodies with our name on"
true: being hollow and alone, believing that you are alone
false: being sad after being dumped, told off, or gaining weight.
true: "I dont understand it, I never have fun with my friends anymore."
false: "OMG! I AM SO DEPRESSED! Jake said I was a bitch and dumped me last night"
A stated in which you feel that everything is never right. It is because you're depressed that you continue to be depressed. Often by use by people who think they are depressed when really they just got left by some one who they thought they "loved". When depressed you often lie about your depression saying that everything is okay and nothing is wrong, in which you lie to yourself. Depression is often caused by friends and family. Feeling "alone", but often just surrounded by people who are your "friends", but never understand you. Surrounded by family that tries to help when they see that your depressed, but just end up making it worse. Suicide is sometimes caused by depression. Depression can be helped by writing poems, expressing yourself, or finding a hobby. Never let your depression be with you and only you. Let someone know.
"What's wrong Eleni?"
"Alone I should say?...
No, not alone, just lonely.
As I am free,
also am I enslaved
With no one around me.
Alone I should say?
Yes, I am, just alone"
when you can't seem to understand what is bothering you, you dont care about the things you used to and you feel so hollow inside, that all that comes to mind is...death.
"I used to be so vibrant, and lived in colours, now i'm walking around in shades of gray, and i dont understand why"
The feeling that you'll never be happy again.
The time when you don't want to go anywhere.
The time when you don't want to do anything.
Or see anyone.
My good friend.
"I don't want to live this life anymore if all I'm going to live to be is depressed"
Falling down an endless well, and never seeing the bottom
the light getting thinner and thinner...
Pointlessness, a constand feeling of being horrified beyond beleif, an intense feeling of the absolute end. Waking up and not being able to get out of bed, every second of everyday is a battle to survive your horrifying feelings. You can't think straight, it's not about personal strength or being weak, it is an illness that swallows your life. You are trapped in the coldest, most pointless hell. You feel the immence indifference of the world. Your world stands still and every object you see, every person you see, sends you a feeling that you are worthless and no body cares. Mental terror- seems like it will never ever ever go away. You want to do something about it but you are tied up. It is anger without the enthusiasm. Sadness without the comfort of tears. You just stare, and feel the most hollow, scarey feeling, your spirit dies, your passion dies, the joy you once had seems like somebody elses. You want to duck tape yourself to your bed, never eat, and smoke a pack of cigarettes. Nothing, even comforting words from your mother and supportive friends come across as overwhelmingly meaningless. Every sound is annoying, melodies of songs scare you. Smells make you weak. You force down your food, you force out your words, going to the bathroom is a chore. You want to rott and you hate every second of it. You realize how it feels to be the homeless, to have no heart, to have to much of a heart. You self sabotage yourself with every thought and word, you don...more...
Feeling upset that goes on and on, and won't go away.
When your depressed you feel drained,anger, worthless,every thing is a effort. And like your life is not worth living, can't stop crying and you don't always have to have a reason, your just on edge.
You have so much sadness and pain that what ever you do you can't get rid of. Some peoples depression is obviously not as bad, and doesn't last as long. But major depression goes on for months and some times years.
You sleep more, or you can less. But lots of depressed people sleep in the day too.
Very negative all the time.
Can't see a way out and that your be better of dead.
Feel in despair.
When you feel bad, you often self harm, you just want to hurt you self. You have so much pain inside, yet you don't no why. Depression is a living hell.
All you know is how you feel, day in and out.
Not enough people understand depression.
And not enough right help is given to those people who desperately need it, and end up killing them self.
If you have bad depression that you can get rid of it.
Life is going to be meaningless, and your going to just think about death even if you don't do any thing.
I know, lots about depression NOT by reading stuff i know shit all about.
Basically i live the shit so i know depression.