To not care, to have tried and tried but have gotten nowhere. Not an act of defeat but an act of rebellion.understanding you dont want what everybody else has.feeling completed and wanting nothing.letting life's current take control of your entire self worth and shows you the bigger picture. Self destruction really is the first step into enlightenment. Damn everything and persue disire
till you find what you really need to exist.
Anti-sober : if you need an example then stay sober.