B.) Why I suffer.
B.) I'm afraid of eveything now. Its stupid, but I can't stop it. I'm afraid of people, yet I love them. I want love, but I'm too cowardly to look for it. Instead I get caught up in the deluded fantasies in my head and wait for the world to go away.
OCD Is a disorder that cause Obessive thoughts and/or compulsive actions resulting from a shortage of a chemical inside the frontal lobe of the brain. There are many ways to take care of OCD. The two best ways are behavior therapy and medication (what I use). Unlike most other mental disorders people with OCD lead mostly normal lives and are aware of their disorder. The disorder can be extremely stressful on it's victims. In fact is a stress so bad that most people without the disorder have probably ever experienced.
Because of OCD Jeff constantly washed his hands for germs until they became blistered and raw.
Because of OCD Andrew couldn't handle a gun because he was afraid he would harm someone he cared about with it.
When you have it, its difficult you feel empty, you get headaches when people don't do things your way, you become a perfectionist, you take your anger out by screaming, you don't like to talk to a therapist, you hate germs.
Your therapist continues to tell you to shorten your OCD, "rituals" you feel extremly awkward and empty.
You hate it when people make fun of OCD,
you hate when people call it a " mental disorder"
you hate it when people call you " crazy "
You get scared & nervous, very very quickly.
Sometimes OCD can lead to panic attacks, anxiety disorders, ulcers, and depressions.
incase you didn't notice, i have OCD, so take it from me, not some asshole who's making fun of it.
OCD PATIENT: its hard, i feel so strange.
When I'm on the computer, nobody can be standing on my right side. I don't know why, that's just the way it is.
I need to wear a blanket over my shoulders around one of my older brothers. It's only with him too, and I absolutely cannot stand to be around him without something covering my shoulders. I've been told that's OCD, at least.
"Leave him alone to sulk, miserable bastard. It's a good job it's only OCD, or I'd kick his head in"
I have to shut doors, or I will not feel "right". And will become extremley bothered.
Before I go to bed, I turn the volume on the T.V down all the way. But must leave the T.V itself on.
It really sucks a lot. I keep thinking the world's going to end and every time I hear an airplane or any noise I keep running to my window and stare outside until it goes away because I think it's an asteroid.
I also hide food because I don't want people to think I'm fat or get yelled at by my mom.
It's a very, very depressing disorder and I hate it very much.