to masturbate while crying because of depression, anger or frustration. Typically performed facing a corner of a room, as in a style of self-punishment. Can be done sitting, standing or kneeling, and is often a bit violent.
Also, but not commonly, repeatedly punching oneself in the junk for pleasure.
On Friday nights, Cleo likes to hatebeat while listening to Staind and pouring hot candle wax on himself. Sometimes he does this while listening to Q Lazzarus and standing in front of a full-length mirror saying, "I'd fuck me. I'd fuck me so hard."